Diagnosis and Optimism

Well, be careful what you ask for. Throughout these last few weeks, I've been really frustrated with the fact that I haven't really known what it is causing the swelling in my legs and I finally get a diagnosis, lymphedema. To spare you the Googling, it's a condition where the lymphatic system in a part of your body (in my case, the legs) is shot and fluid doesn't get re-routed like its supposed to, causing swelling. pain, and reduced function. It is chronic and there is no cure. Heavy for a 26 year old, but life goes on I guess. There is a treatment for it that consists of this four time a week for four week thing I have to go to a physical therapist for, then after that, I have to keep my legs compressed and bandaged in order to keep them from returning to this size for...well, the rest of my life. I've come to terms with it and I'm willing to do what is needed to maintain my mobility, so I'm not gonna let it keep me down.

On the brighter side, possibly related to such a diagnosis, I've been filled with a bit of renewed purpose and my days have a bit of structure to them now. I have a bit more of a command of my sleep schedule now and I think I have a streaming schedule in mind. It's going to be three times a week, but the only day that I can guarantee at this point is Saturday since my work schedule changes every week. Remember, if you want to watch, it's twitch.tv/ninja_tank25. I'm not accepting donations at this time, but if you want to help, just spread the word and follow my stream! For now, I am playing Skyrim and getting sent to Sovngarde every 10 minutes, so it should be a good time. As for the time, on the days I do stream, it should be midday, so around 2 pm ~ 5 pm CST...so now-ish, so if you'll excuse me, I gotta get ready!

Game on!
-lost_angel25/ninja_tank25

Keeping my head up!

Hey everyone!

Sometimes no news is good news, and things have been relatively quiet as of late. I have still been sending in job applications and working when I can, that being said, I am actually off tonight because I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow, this time for a physical therapist (fun!) I'm gonna be frank here, I'm a pretty large guy, like I know I'm overweight, and because of that, I actually don't like going to the doctor despite the fact that I have health concerns. Despite my efforts, losing weight is an utter pain and doctors tend to latch onto that as being the one cure-all for me and lose focus on the other symptoms that I have. They'll mention my weight and I have to fight the urge to go "Gee, I'm overweight? I could have sworn I was 190 when I left the house this morning..." Personal health aside, I'm not gonna NOT go to the doctor, but I'm not exactly expecting anything groundbreaking. I am getting a bit tired of the running around though. I don't have a car, so I use Lyft to get to these places, not to mention the actual costs of these visits, it's adding up, and when you combine it with my reduced hours, it could spell disaster. For now, I've been holding the ship together and paying my bills, so there's no need to sound the alarm just yet!

Between work, sleep, job applications, and running errands, I haven't had a lot of time for play, but luckily that changes tomorrow as I'll be able to relax for a bit after the doctor. If I do stream, it'll be around 5 PM CST at twitch.tv/ninja_tank25. Hopefully I'll see all 2 of you guys there!

Keep your head up!
-Lost_angel25/Ninja_tank25

Job Search Update

So much for the daily update right? Anyway, it turns out I did NOT get the job at the U of M and on top of that, my mystery medical condition appears to be getting worse. I can go without eating for around 18 hours but my weight appears to be increasing. My sleep schedule also appears to be increasingly sporadic and with my inconsistent eating habits comes indigestion and nausea, which cuts into to my work hours. I've been slowly going through my tax return, but made my first major purchase with it in the form of new dress clothes that I used to attend a career fair yesterday to continue the search for a new job. Things aren't too great right now and although I've paid my portion of the bill, there is a chance that the lights may get cut off today, so that's hanging over my head too. I'm charging my phone and preparing for the worse.

Sorry if this blog has been a bit of a downer lately, but once things improve on my end, I promise the content will lighten up. For now, just now that my spirits haven't been dampened by this and I am still putting in job applications and doing he best I can when I am awake and feeling my best. For my loyal reader(s), keep being awesome!

Game on!
Lost_angel25/Ninja_tank25